Monday, October 17, 2011


corn dogs
roasted corn on the cob
 philly cheese steak
candied apples
fried milky way candy bar
cherry snow cones
fresh chips
funnel cakes
2011 NC State Fair = CONQUERED

Friday, October 7, 2011

art purge

a while ago i started a new blog. a secret blog. a blog (there is just no way to make the word "blog" sound respectable or grownup btw) where i could say things.
deep, thought-provoking, fancy things.

 alright, that's a lie. but someday i will post something thoughtful on it and not my usual gripes and trivial concerns and ramblings. i don't know why i have this need to EXPRESS. to use various art forms to purge my emotions or to help explain what doesn't feel explainable by conversation.
i just do.

i'm not very creative in my pattern of self expression though.

if i'm drawing, andrew knows to tread lightly. i'm in the bad place and needing to numb out.

if i'm playing the piano, i want to be left alone. it generally brings out the quiet,
sometimes somber side of me.

singing = the happy place.

however, singing WHILE playing the piano??... probably feeling reflective and possible a bit blue.
please don't interrupt.
feel free to take a seat and enjoy the show though.

obsessively editing photos? getting stuff DONE.
stay out of my way.

writing often means venting. although sometimes it's from the fun place. you know, a fun-vent.

dance.. yes, i dance! *insert jazz hands. i still do a mean shuffle-kick from ballet class, age 6 thankyouverymuch. and i didn't take "street jazz" for one whole year during puberty just for the heck of it. you can't unlearn sweet moves like those from street jazz.
they just become a part of you.

where was i? oh yes, dance.

dance = some kind of frantic HIGH. and almost always involves ian and owen accompanying me.

theater geeking = i'm in the mood to TALK.  and you will be expected to listen. and learn. and then appreciate all things theater and performance related.

hmm.. not really sure how this all came about or how to end it.

i think i will go do an angry flight of the conchords dance to resolve this random post.

artpurge, done.

and to prove the apple doesn't fall far from the weird, artsy tree; a photo of my youngest - whose older brother had his own purge of artistic self-expression yesterday.

all over his younger brother's face.

Monday, September 26, 2011

"..gone to carolina.."

i knew i missed the east/south - but how MUCH i missed it wasn't clear until we arrived. i love the sound of cicadas at night. i still vividly remember the first time i realized how silent idaho can be at night. i went on a date once to the sand dunes (no napoleon dynamite jokes please...) and we made a fire. something was "off" that made me uncomfortable and i couldn't put my finger on it. finally i realized it was the complete and utter SILENCE.
no bugs.
no critters.
no leaves in the wind.
no traffic.
nothing but the coyotes occasionally yelping in the distance.
(which incidentally abruptly ended the date and sent me speed walking for the car..)
i never got used to that silence. but oh the cicadas! i love their sound. ian was terrified the first time he heard them once we moved back. he's adjusted though.
driving around my home town, i felt like a weight had been lifted. not that i hated the places we lived. in fact there are things i miss from every state we've been in, but it just felt good to explore MY city again.
an AMAZING house fell into our laps here, which put ian in an amazing school~ we have a creek in the back yard and unlike the one in cascade, i don't have to worry about the rushing water carrying the boys away or bears possibly drinking from it. we do have copperheads though...ugh. we live in a cul-de-sac. and not a dirt one either. to the best of my knowledge, we have never had a mountain lion in the yard. or fawn carcass in a tree. or a bear cub by the garage. no large bears have punctured our trashcan. (although flies have invaded it.) i can't say the view is as beautiful here. there are no snow capped mountains surrounding us as we swim in the lake. the lake water isn't clear either. it's tinged with a combination of pollution and red clay. it's hard to find a place where a house isn't blocking your view. but the beach isn't too far. the mountains are within driving distance. there are lush, green trees everywhere. and the state fair is coming soon! fall is my favorite time of year - probably because i grew up here. the leaves are already starting to change.

okay, these are the opposite of the kinds of blogs i like to write. but consider yourself updated.
we are home, baby!

a few random pics

We're Baa-aaaack

Mommy & Ian - the whole Fam - Mommy & Owen

Owen with his cousin Sofie & with his Aunty Donna

Aunt Bebe & Caden - Uncle Andrew & 'Fia
Sofia, Papa, Caden and Memere

Tia Maria with Sofia and Owen - Ian saying "goodbye" to his sweet cuz -
Baby 'Fia in LOVE with her big cousin

This one did NOT end well...

Sick boy wanting to be no other place than his Memere's arms~

the Crazies

Ian's first day of 1st Grade - Owen kissing Ms. Jan on his first day of Preschool

NC Thunder Storm
Daddy's Secret Fishing Spot - Shrek in the Mud


Owen's 3rd Birthday

"Pony" rides in the back yard

Memere's Birthday!

Trying to be like Daddy...

Boys exploring the back yard - My little Poser

Randomness complete.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

today as i dropped ian off at school he came to my window to give me a kiss (as he does every morning), and i licked my thumb and started

mom-cleaning the grits that were left on his face from breakfast. he backed up in horror and said,

"MOM! you're doing that in front of EVERYBODY!!"

- even though no one was watching.

i embarrassed him. kindergartener.


granted he will be in 1st grade soon so he is practically a man. it really did make me a little sad though..

fortunately on his walk into school he continued to do what he does every morning, which is wave incessantly at owen and i, flash "i love you" signs, and even blew a kiss or two to his brother who every morning screams from his window,


over and over until he his big brother is out of sight.

as long as he is still little enough to realize how uncool signing "i love you" and blowing kisses are then i guess we're still okay.
still, that was a close call.

as we were getting out of the car at home after dropping him off, owen marshall grabbed ian's old "CARS" backpack, tried to put it on himself and said for the first time ever,

"i go school"

i think i'm fighting a losing battle.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

the best thing about turning 30?
no that's not it.
accomplishing everything i've ever set as a goal for myself?!!
starting a new phase of life?
ehh.. *with indifferent shrug*.
getting spoiled for a weekend?
i'm not THAT shallow people!
okay, yes i am. i am that shallow because so far the BEST thing about turning 30 has been the celebration of me - i mean IT! the celebration of it.
1st there was a box from home with some bday presents, then an unexpected bouquet of beautiful roses from my parents-in-law followed by the anticipation of a girls night out in which i had no idea what we were doing! (i do love a surprise) - especially since i was a little bummed to be so far away from friends this year~
my sister-in-law, tillia and my cousin, aleksi picked me up and we headed up to salt lake where we went to this awesome spa for pedicures. it really was such a neat place and the girls there were very cool. they even let us paint our fingernails while they did our toes which was pretty nice. sometimes i forget how i tend to view the world thru mother-of-little-boys eyes. i decided to choose this cool nail polish that sort of cracks as it dries to expose whatever color you have underneath. i informed everyone that my right big toe dried to look like an earthquake fault line and my left big toe dried looking reptilian. like a cool lizard. my uber-girly cousin, aleksi said she thought it looked more like black lace over the greenish/blue under color i had chosen. i suppose her way sounds prettier, but personally i think they should from here-on-out advertise this look as "reptilian earthquake". what woman wouldn't want that?!
here is the after pic; me (with the reptilian polish, tillia in blue and aleksi in gold).
i was also treated to some awesome shimmery grey o.p.i. after~
tillia had asked me earlier in the week what i would like to eat for my birthday dinner. i told her i would think about it and asked my boys. my husband said, (only semi-jokingly sadly) "i always like golden coral!" and my 6 year old quickly followed with "and i always like cracker barrel!"
"both EXCELLENT suggestions", i said.
i called her back to say sushi sounded heavenly.
and so after our feet and legs were spoiled with pedicures and massages, we headed to this amazing japanese restaurant, rated the BEST sushi in slc. we sat in the "traditional seating" area. while i have had a lot of sushi, i have never been to a "traditional" japanese restaurant. i sat with my legs sideways for a solid 20 minutes before i realized that the floor actually drops a foot or two underneath the table for your legs... my bad.
dinner was fantastic. beyond fantastic actually. the absolute PERFECT birthday meal.
after dinner we hung around until we started getting mean looks from the staff and decided we just wanted to skip a movie and hang out. so we stayed out talking until 2am.
aleksi gave me a pretty necklace and tillia told me that my "real"bday present were the tickets she had gotten for us to see"RENT" this summer.
YAAYY ME! although i have to say there is no one and i mean NO ONE that tillia could have more fun with at a show than myself. fact.
even though at the end of the night aleksi informed us that hanging out with tillia and i was like (and this is a DIRECT quote) "hanging out with two moms"
BURN... (in hindsight i suppose we did tell a lot of kid stories).
and even though i have been dreading this birthday, i have to say it was one
awesome evening.
i was informed not to expect this every year since 30 is a special one.

on my actual birthday, we celebrated with tiramisu and cake.
and after the boys were asleep, while andrew and i curled up watching a movie while binging on cake and "blood orange" drink stuff, andrew's sister, jen and her husband and girls dropped by with lots of cards and drawings and little gifts. it was a great way to end the day~
so that's it. i am now officially 30.
if wisdom happens to find me this year, i will be sure to let you know.
thanks to all my friends and family for the birthday wishes~
i feel loved.
and old.

Another FAV!!